EvriDa < 3

"Each morning the sun shines through my window

Lands on the face of a dream come true"

.... Meet my DreamS come true...
I'm sure he'd LOVE that I shared this pic, but this is my harworkin' man and this pictures shows it. From his dirty face that he chose to ignore so the kids could see the light parade in the freezing cold... to the baby wrapped up in his jacket.
He's loving and kind and gentle and thoughtful when he wants to be.
He can also be the most stubborn, hard-headed, most frustrating man I've ever known.
But he's mine.
And I Love him.

And then there are these dreams come true.
My Saving Grace, My Baby Red Taters and My Sassy Boo!
Words cannot express what they mean to me.
Each one is different, with qualities all their own.
Sometimes amazing, sometimes trying.
But all the time mine. And all the time loved.

"I shuffle to the kitchen for my coffee
and catch up on the front page morning news"

(More likely Creamer with a bit of coffee... and my morning news is best found via the web.)

"It's ordinary, plain and simple...Typical.
Nothing 'bout it too peculiar."

We raise pigs, and dogs and cats... horses, a chinchilla and a goat.


We go to Church and school.

We sing praises and give thanks to God.
"Oh but I can't get enough... of this Everyday Love"



So, this is my new outlook. I'm starting with the blog changes. No more "Tired Mom". I believe that we make our own environment - at least to some degree. If you believe you're always going to be unhappy, then chances are you're going to be unhappy. If you believe you're destined for failure after failure... you're most likely going to fail. If you go around believing that everything is wrong and it's never going to get better... then it's probably not.
Unless you do something to change it.

So now I'll point the finger back at myself. If I'm always referring to myself as "This Tired Mom" then guess what? That's the mentality I take on and it starts taking over. I've stopped exercising, stopped caring about what I look like, stopped wearing makeup, rarely visit friends and family, stopped caring about the crap that I've been putting into my body (and it shows)... the list could go on and on.
Basically, for the past couple of years I have been settling into this worn-down, no-energy-for-anything, all-consuming blahness... and I want to change that.

Sure, I have a lot on my plate. Husband, kids, mortgage, school projects, daycare kids, building my crochet business, breakfast, lunch, dinner, cleaning, laundry, bills, landscaping, painting... this list could go on and on, too. But when it comes right down to it... this is my EVERYDAY LOVE!

This is what I always prayed for. My beautiful family. A beautiful home, beautiful children, a loving, hard-working husband. I have to remember that this is what God has called me to do! This is my job! I have to remember that when I get frustrated at the mundane, crappy, everyday chores, discipline and unpleasantness.

I remember, as an emotional teenager... my mom was "ranting" at me about picking up my laundry and doing my own wash... "Do you think I enjoy this? Doing YOUR laundry everyday? Doing everything else for everyone else?"

My snotty teenage response (under my breath, of course) was "Well, it is your job!" Why was she getting mad at me for the life she chose? As a mother and wife - she stayed at home and that was supposed to be her job. She CHOSE to live her life that way.

And then I grew up and had kids of my own... and now I find myself "ranting" at my kids. I hear myself stressing at them... the very same words my mother did to me. Now, though... I also hear my inner spoiled teenager grumbling that same response.

This is the life I prayed and asked God for.
I'm choosing to be aware, and diligent and thankful for this Everyday Love that he's given me!